31st of dec

Is the last day of the year le !! time really pass very fast and this year is really a nice year for me in my study , my work , scouting and my life !! haha

i had really enjoy my year with siglap whitestag this year all thanks to the leader council for their hard work and i am sure we can go even future next year !!!

i am really looking forward to 2009 where i will have to go to NS le !! erm i really hope next year siglap whitestag ad sands rover will soar up even higher and i am sure i will stay in both unit till the day i lost my breath !! haha

i will also like to wish all my frens happy new year and hope that u guys will have a wonderful year ahead !!

12 of dec

i am having a headach now !!! haha dunno y also la .. i tink not enough slp...
anyway went for night cycling with bat panda weasel and crayfish !! was kind of fun after all .. haha and really smooth riding yest !! haha

i will be out for a rover outing tmr night till sunday early morning and then head off for a venture camp at sister island !! i tink i will be spending my first day slping ba !! haha then i will head back on 16 morning and i will be going work in the noon time !! haha super ar /.. then on 17 head to work and 18 to 21 i got another venture training camp !! haha

hopefully i will not fall sick after that la .. cos i will be chionging work for the next 2 wk after 21st !!! haha

anyway i am really looking forward to my next event !!! DISTRICT FIELD DAY 2009 !! all pls come for this event ok ?? haha

that should be all le ba !! will update when i am free again !!

1st of dec

I am back home from NPC campfire and i am really happy tat WHITESTAG has gotten a bronze award !! i really have to say the npc team had put in alot and well done boys !! i am also happy tat all the sch in tampines had got an award for this year npc !! hooray !!!

i really have to give Eagles and Dove npc team a pat on their shoulder !! well done ... u guys have impress me alot !! to me u guys have gotten a GOLD !!! well done and keep up the good work !! i will hope to see more from all the sch in tampines !!

also not forgetting to congrat ONEIDA and WICHITA for attaining the silver award !! YA YA YA YA !!! haha

all i can say is all the sch in tampines district have made us proud !! i will really hope to see all of us getting better result for the next NPC and bond closely always to make tampines always the one who is noisy at campfire !! haha

Well done !! all your hard work had paid off !!! Tampines !! tampines !! tampines !! tampines !! tampines !! you are the one !! you are the Champion !! you will always be number 1 !! TAMPINES !!!!!

after all this year npc is quite well done !! i really feel that all the school is here not jus to win a award but also taking a chance to know more people ... the campfire itself had really showcase the bonding between each sub camp !! well done npc 08 committee !!!


back to life !!

for the past week , many people has come and talk to me and i had also talk to many people and i really feel tat i have learn alot since the day i became a leader till now !! i am really enjoying the sharing session with everyone !!

i have also been asking my venture and also scout abt some question and really talk to them abt it but this time round i am pin down by wisdom keeper question to me !! wat can i do to help sands rover to work tgt ?? i really wish to put all sort of political stuff down and really think of way to get my crew tgt !! but i am still having a problem solving the thing that is stopping me to do it !! wat can i really do >?? i will sure start to think and help !! i really wan to see the crew moving !! give me some time !!!!

handling stuff like this is really not easy !! but all i can say is i will do my best !! ... as for bat bat !! erm do make a wise decision !! i believe u are more than capable to make a decision !! but no matter wat i will be here for u !! no doubt wat your decision is i will still respect the decision u made !! is hard and there will be lot of thing u have to let go in either decision but at times we really have no choice !!!

i am really getting piss by the 2 people !! for goodness sick please think far enough !! dun jus think of wat is good for yourself !! remember a scout help others !!

MSG to YOU !!

WisdomKeeper : i will start tinking now and make sure u dun lost fate in me !!

Marlin: you are more than capable to be who you are !!! all the best !!

R.Bat: at times we have to make decision tat will make u lost something after all !! but wat is more important is the learning point !!

CottonTail : you are doing well and doing good !! keep it up !!

Huda : all your hard work has paid off !! well done !!

seraphina : make a decision now if not you will hurt yourself even more !!

Waiman : Well done !! you are doing good now and i hope to see more when u are in the venturing stage !! all the tears and sweat for npc has paid off !! u guys have gotten more than a bronze !! Well done !!( dun cry la ,, later ugly) haha

to myself : get rid of wat i have that is stopping me to do thing !! haha !!

Mr VES and Mr Ralph: Thanks for the time and hard work putting in for the npc team !!

this post is really kind of long !! lastly TAKE CARE EVERYBODY AND GILWELL SUBCAMP MEMBER !!!

24th of Nov

back from PLTC 2008 le !!!

i am really missing camp and all my GILWELL subcamp scouts !!! u guys had really make me miss all of you like mad lorx !!! and i really hope u guys enjoy the camp and learn thing !!!

PLTC 08 is really successful and well done everybody ...

something tat i like the most !!!

"yeah yeah yeah yeah" , "AH AH AH AH"

'Gilwell ..... who you want to be ah , no. 1 ar
Who u want to be ar, Gilwell warrior
Fight fight, fight like a champion
Win win , Win like a Champion
Fight like a champion
Win like a Champion
O...... GILWELL "

hope to see u guys soon and miss you guys !!!

雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究你说你不懂为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默悔得很冲动就算这是做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫梦分开了叫痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后果我能承受这最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠哦如果你想忘记我也能失忆能不能给我一首歌的时间把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪让它留在雨天哦越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究你说你不懂为何在这时牵手我晒干了沉默悔得很冲动就算这是做错也只是怕错过

在一起叫梦分开了叫痛是不是说没有做完的梦最痛迷路的后果我能承受这最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远给我一首歌的时间在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠哦如果你想忘记我也能失忆能不能给我一首歌的时间把故事听到最后才说再见

你送我的眼泪让它留在雨天哦越过你划的线

我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你要怎么证明我没有说谎力气哦请告诉我暂停算不算放弃我只有一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠哦如果你想忘记我也能失忆能不能给我一首歌的时间把故事听到最后才说再见你送我的眼泪让它留在雨天哦越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该不该不该在这时说了爱你要怎么证明我没力气告诉我暂停算不算放弃

你说我不该不该不该在这时才说爱你要怎么证明我没有力气我只有一天的回忆

i love this song .. can i have a time limit of a song ??
i decide to keep lovin u ..
i know i will get hurt as it goes on..
but i am willing to take it ...
i will be here for u always ..
I LOVE YOU !!!

11 of nov

i am feeling much better today le .. but my body somehow is trying to make me fall sick .. vomitted yest night and today was having headach and feel like vomitting .. sian .. dunno wat will happen tmr le ...

erm i had sms her today and i told her i will like to talk to her on the next time i meet her again ... i really dunno when i see her wat can i say .. but i will try to tell her wat i really wish to say la .. as i said before i had regret not telling her i love her !!

erm there is so much thing to do this few week .. and PLTC and Unit camp is drawing so near le .. haha erm i really hope i will do well in the camp and make sure the boys learn things from me !! haha

9 of nov

i am really feeling the pain ...

looking thru all the sms u send since 21 of aug till today the first sms and also the only u reply back .. i am happy to see changes in you but i am still feeling very pain .. i really dunno how much time will i take to bring myself to forward....

i am really feeling sad for not telling you how i feel abt u , not putting in as much as i could for u and not being able to bring u more thing ... "i hate myself for not lvin u enough" .... hate myself for not overcoming the fear to tell u i wan u to b might and i wan to be with u when u are happy, sad or anything ..

now all i can do is too view ur back view and see u lovin another person ...

view the pic i place at my wallet, those sms u send, thinking for the time i am looking forward to see u, thinking of the days that i can attend camp and see u ... i dunno y but i am missing u more when i know u are walking away from me toward another him ...

i really hope u will be happy ..

9 of nov

firstly, well done to al pltc participants and committee member for the successful PLTC seminar and i really enjoy myself with gilwell subcamp !!!

my mood now for the day !!! VERY VERY UPSAD !!!

the gal i love is living happily with another guy .... i have been thinking what is the reason that i love her and my purpose of loving her is try to make her chnage her attitude toward other and make sure she will be a better person ... have i done that ?? i believe her attitude did change and i am really happy to see her being a better attitude person !! i had also once said to justin that if i can see a change in her, it is also ok for me not to have her as my gal !! so wat i said had happen and do u tink i have the rite to be upsad ??

i should not be feeling upsad now infacr happy that she did change and she is now happy with who she is ... is jus a normal heart breaking nicholas u are seeing for the next few wk ... in fact i am really pissed with myself or not being able to tell her wat i really feel .. i am jus a NOOB FUCK ... wanting to overcome my fear of tell ppl but i still can do it rite !!!

MSG TO HER:
Wen ... i am sure u know this msg is to u !! i am really happy that i manager to see a change in you towards ur attitude and happy to see u finding someone who can love u more than i can !! is jus that i have a few thing which i didn;t have a chnace to tell you ...but it dun really matter le la .. but i do wish tat we can still be like how we are ... feel free to sms u if u face any problem and dun avoid anything !! after all still friends and still scout bro and sis ar !!!

ps:if i am not putting a smile on my face for the next few wk please forgive me !!!

6th of nov

Am i Ready to help other people ??
Fellowship to the open air and service !!!

is all my rover crew ready for it ??

personally i tink i am really not ready !! but i will overcome the fear i have in my own mindset ... i am more than willing to help but everything when i think of what is going to happen after that i have fear coming in to me ... i believe if i really put in my heart to overcome it i will !!!

really have a nice chat with justin while waiting for wolf and it really hit me lot with my thinking !!

Am i ready ?? i really hope i am !!

i really fear a lot on relationship and also facing one of my fellow rover but i believe i will face it soon !!!

is changing her what i really wan only ?? i tink is part of wat i wan and will i take her as a replacement ?? i will touch my heart and say !!"NO" if i can put in my heart to help her y cant i do the same to my fellow rover ?? i really asked myself ....

if i were to approach any of our rover please dun let the others know ok ??? haha i will soon ask you out for a talk !!! haha wait for me !! and also towards my relationship i think is time i should at least know what she is thinking le !!

no doubt u might not be ready for a realtionship but after all i believe both of us will wan to know if is one-sided or is both way !! but dun worry .. ur answer wun make me lost u as a fren !! after all we can still be how we are now if is one-sided !!! i believe is only whether u wan it or u dun !! true ??

i have found my problem in my mindset and i am going to find a solution to solve it !!

to all my frens out there !! there will not be a problem without a solution !! believe me .. is whether u are willing to put in ur heart to find the solution !!!

5th of nov

NPC training , LKY young inventor , PLTC 08 , Venture unit and cub scout field day 09 !!! omg .. so many things to do lorx .. but wat i am much stress off is the cub scout field day la !!! i am reall abt the finance part ... but i believe i will try my best to do it de !! haha

meet azri today to disccus on NPC training again !! erm it seem like our boys had too much idea le and they simply jus nv take time as part of the consideration !! i will be going down on wed to see wat idea they have and ffrom there try to figure out wat they wan la !! althought i really feel sad that they wan to change most of the thing i had plan la .. but somehow i already prepared ?? haha really dunno ....

erm i simply missing HuiWen so so much la !! even thought i wil be able to see her this coming sat la .. but jus mis her lorx !! haha

erm jus to take note !! if anyone were to find Azri wallet anywhere please return to him ok !!! haha he is like waiting for the wallent to come back to him !! haha

4th of nov

i am back to update my blog le !! haha erm the last wk end was really busy for me !! erm went to help out dove on the camp but i think i didn't really help much la !! but i can get to see HuiWen !! haha is that my main purpose ?? i dun tink so la !! haha

School is also kind of busy too .. my project was choosen for LKY young inventor award and there will be a presentation this coming wed !! hopefully my group will get through !! wish me luck horx !! haha

anyway, went bball today and after that meet marlin and R.bat for a chit chat !!

erm marlin asked us this question "have u ever ask god why did god place someone in your live at different period of ur live ??" i believe most people will answer the same waay as i did ?? erm what i told him was " the reason is kind of simple maybe, ITS A TEST !!" don't u guys feel the same ?? erm u can meet some one who is easy to communicate but some time u will meet some one that is so difficult to get along but after all is a test for u to learn how to make both of them a fren of yours ....

Everything in live is a test and is a learning point as long as u are willing to open up to accept it !! so there is nth that u cant do is onli if u are willing to open up and do it !!

So to all my frens out there !! erm if u have something that u want to do but haven !! do open up and do it !! haha although i also have something that i haven do !! haha but i will try my best to open up and ask !! haha

1st of nov

HIHI !!! erm jus reach home from a day of soccer today at the cage !! erm is really fun to play with Azhari friends and relative !! haha after all, i had a nice games with them !! but the after effect when u dun warm up == Cramps !! haha

while i was bathing just now i am think of this !! izzit tat she do not have confident in me or izzit she do not have confident in her ?? or am i jus not good enough for her ?? really kind of sob sob !! haha but hopefully is jus that she is not ready !!

i had went to develop one of the photo in my hp to put it in my wallet !! but now i have 2 .. cos they cannot wash jus one !! mus 2 so i put the other one at my ezlink card holder !1 so maybe i will see if she wan then i can give her lorx !! haha how i wish she will want it !! haha

tmr will be another long day for me !! long day = spend money ... but no matter wat i am going to try not to spend so much money le !!! so i tink i will be back soon to update again la !! really busy with stuff and i will be going for a young inventor competition soon !! haha hopefully i can win so money !! haha

see u guys soon at my blog !!

MSG FOR YOU >>>

YiZhen >> hey when are we going to meet ?? haha so long no see man !!

Marlin >> Erm all the best in everything u do and your gal gal ar !! but dun shotg_ _!!

Raging Bat >> hey hey you you , you are a POLICEMAN !!!

WisdomKeeper&Joanna>> stay lovin always !!

Russian Bear >> dun mistreat your stomach la dey !! haha

WaiMan >> Erm O lvl chinese good luck ar !! then pls take good care of yourself horx !! and miss u lot lot !!! haha

23 of oct 2008

went for leaders council today and i am kind of suprise that the meeting end early !! haha i think is the first time we end our meeting so early ba !! haha

erm have a few disscusion and i tink this meeting when quite well after all !! haha erm and tmr there will be another meeting for me !! PLTC !! why must meeting all be at the same week man !! haha but i tink i will be more than happy to attend the meeting tmr !! haha

actual wat suprise me the most today is that 2 of my leaders actually came !! anyway thx brandon and xing yao for coming !! haha really being a long time since i see them !! haha

suddenly feeling so emo !! haa maybe i miss her too much le .. haha erm ok la .. will end here le .. haha

18 oct 2008

it is really a tiring day !!! first i got a the news that my store is on fire early in the morning and i am kind of shock and dun really believe as i was onli half awake but it happen to be true when my boss sms me around 11am !!! so i went to bath and head down to store to see what has happen !! guess wat !! the shop beside us caught fire and so suai our store also kana !! and the fire is really big as when i reach there the shop that caught fire only left burned metal piceces .... anyway i can see that my boss is realy worried but really no choice man !! so later on my big boss came down also !!

it is really lucky that no one got burn or hurt and we will get a new store also !! haha anyway went there and then helped out at small mac til around 3pm then head off to meet R.bat for bowling !! then i got a call from my boss at around 530pm and then i head off back to store to clear some stuff !!!

i manager to get justin and dhaval to come down and help also and then anna also came down and also WAIMAN !!! so i am like so happy when i see her lorx !! erm started clearing then really smelly and tiring man !! and we ended 1/4 of the clearing onli and is already 9pm le !!! so we head off for dinner !! thanks you cheryl for the treat !! hehe then all of us when back around 10pm and i walked WAIMAN home !! hehe erm really happy that i get to see her today !! super duper miss her lorx ... haha

tmr will be another long day for me and justin le !! we wil be meeting at 10am and we will be tgt til 4am !! haha so if are finding either of us jus call either one will do !! haha and of cos i will be seeing WAIMAN tmr again !! happy happy happy !!!

13 oct 2008

我为什么还爱你?? 因为我不想放弃 !!!!

erm i really dun wish to give up !! erm everytime i decide to give up i always regreted !! maybe this time even if she do not respond or even care abt me i will still go on to try my best to change her attitude better to make sure she will be a better person in the future !! i really dun mind you not replying my sms de .... maybe all it will led to is me thinking of you even more as days goes on !! erm if i am not wrong .. the last sms u replied to me is on the 23 of sept !! is half a mth already ?? haha i also dun mind !! but pls dun not avoid me !! we still have many many event that we might meet each other de !!

erm 2 days ago i saw her at 201 !! erm i was with ken paul and faridah .. and the first moment i saw her i was super happy and i just have the urge to hug her la !! but of cos i cant !! and we did not even have chance to talk much !! even thou is jus a less than 3 min conversation and seeing her i really feel very happy !! dunno y la but maybe is jus bcos she is in me ?? haha ... after she left i was like keep looking back to see where she is and is she still there ?? do i need to send her to her fren house ?? and all la !! but a sms send and was not reply !! haha

seriously all i can say is I AM MISSING HER LOTS LOTS !!!!!


back to wat i am doing recently .... erm i am really feeling lousy as days goes by after she stop smsing me !! all i could do is to make myself tired by keep playing basketball and sport and also keep making myself watch drama till late night till i feel tired and so i can dun think of her so much !! haha erm maybe my life is jus simply 2 words !! fuk up !! but so be it man !! i really dun care !! all i can do is to try to bring more stuff to my life !! and i am really happy tat sch started and then i can go to sch and make sure i dun tink of too many thing !!!

i am always thinking if i should let her know wat am i really feeling not !! but somehow i am really afraid to let her know la.. or maybe not let her know but afraid to tell her "can u be my gf" erm so maybe one day when i feel tat she is ready i will ask her la !! but for time being i onli wish to change her attitude and hope that she can change her way of talking and all !!! if i can manage to change her it will be even better than being with her !!!!

I AM FEELING NEGGELTED AND I REALLY MISS YOU !!!

7th of Oct 2008

a long day of indoor and outdoor games !! haha it started off with badminton from 9am till 11am and then head off to azri's house to wake him up for lunch !!! haha like a king lidat rite !! haha after that head for lunch then my house and took a rest and after that me and bat when to watch "big stan" !! haha is really a good show and i think all of u should go and watch !! haha and around 6pm i went to play basketball with a few of my frens till 9plus ba !! erm althought i am still coughing but i still manager to play and survive !! haha really hate having cough !! haiz

it is the last week of holi le !! and think back i tink i have onli work and scout and go out with frens !! but most of the time working la !! haha so really kind of tired le !! and i am lack of motivation from W______ /.... it has been a very long time since she last sms me le !! and what she say is "i lazy la" haiz ... i really dunno what should i do man !! izzit bcos of the exam ?? erm is ending soon le and i hope we can get back to the sms each other le !! haha erm i tink i am really missing her !! haha when can i see her ??

erm i really hope that u will see this !!

ERm if u are doing this just to make me give up then all i can say is ... i wun de !! no matter what will happen i will still take care of you no matter u are my girlfriend or a sister scout of mine !! so dun worry la i will be here to take care of u de !! haha no worries man !! haah....


i am still feeling so sick man !! erm our miss joanne say i am having love sick !! haha i tink maybe la !! thats y i still have recover !! haha

30th of sept 2008

OMG !!! is already the 6th day that u have not reply my sms le lorx !! if u are trying to make me miss u , i can only say u have did it !! i am missing u like mad lorx .. like i have mad cow,mad dog,mad wombat illness lidat le !! haha

erm seriously la !! reply la !! haha

erm all the best in your N level ok ?? erm pls check your paper and dun slp in the exam hall !!

erm love u !!! and i am really missing u !! haha

27 sept 2008

Ah dear !! erm it seem like this few weeks u are facing lots of thing that made u unhappy abt, no matter in ur family or freindship there is always a way to make thing happier !! i always believe that live is short and god made put us in the real world to make sure we live happier everyday and that is how i got this happy go lucky kind of attitude in live !!

controling your mood and choosing the right thing to think abt is also a very importnat thing to make sure u live happier as days goes by so instead of thinking of all the thing that will make u sad think of a way to make thing unhappy thingy into happeiness that u can bring to others and also yourself !!!

is also not wrong to think of unhappy issue but wat is the thing u can do to make sure all this unhappy issue will not come back to your life again ?? think abt it !! and when u find yourself think of solution that will make things goes well, i am sure u will end up having a smile on your face !! so smile more ok ??

i really hate seeing u being moody over so much things !! erm maybe u can pass some to me ?? i am sure my shoulder and stomach is big enough to handle all your unhappy issue !! but most importantly u mus be more than willing to share with me ....

your exam is drawing near le !! choose the right thing to forcus now !! i know u have been trying your best to study and i am sure when ur reslut is out u will be happy to tell yourself "i have put in all i can " !!! so feel free to find me if u need any help or a listening ear !!!

to sister tail !!

dear sis, being in sands i have take everyone of u like my family member so i will not jus leave u alone when u aer feeling down de !! erm from ur recent blog post i can see that u are feeling much better le but i am sure the pain is still there !! it will really take time get all this pain of someone u loved ahd left ... i had experenice that b4 when my grandma passed away and till i still feel the pain when i think of her but all i can do is to think of those happy moment i had with her to make sure i will be smiling when i am thinking of her as i believe she is still somewhere looking after me and my family member and i am sure she will wan to see us smiling instead of crying !! so what ever u face in life , face it with a smile first and remember no matter wat happen u can always find anyone of us !! i am sure all of us is more than willing to listen to you !!! so all the best in your attachment and when u are free find us out for a dinner !!! haha till now take care of yourself ok ?

24 sept 2008

i really dunno what is causing me to think so much over relationship now !!! izzit because i do not have enough slp ?? i really dun wish to be a toy again but it jus made me have this feeling when ever things is not rite ....

caring and concerning her is like a daily thing to do now for me but whether izzit accepted by her i really dunno and i really hope that i can get a reply for her but it seems like either she is unwilliing to say or she really dunno wat to say ....

Am i once again going to be a failure in relation again ?? i can only take good care of her with all i can and whether she will accept or not i really dun wish to tink much ....

my life now is currently working and scouting and nth else ?? haha but i am kind of enjoying my work life but my health seems to be affected by the irrugalur timming that i slp !! haha but i will sure try not to fall sick but if i do i will also make sure i take good care of myself .. haha

ok now some personal msg...

Waiman : Jiayou fir ur N lvl ok >?? erm and take good care of yourself drink more water also ar... and dun let anything spoilt your mood !! stay happy always dar !! miss ya

Marlin : hey bro !! erm spend more time with your gf /... haha and also i am looking forward to your SL post next yr !! haha take care took

Cottontail : Sister !! pls take good care of yourself and believe this !! without failure there will never be sucess. and do take care of yourself pls !! anything jus give me a call !

21 sep 2008

Very sorry for not updating my blog for the pass 2 wk !! haha
have been really busy working as is holiday now !! 1 and a half mth of working and meeting up frens !! haha but there is someone who i really wan to meet u with but she got Exam coming soon so i can onli wait till she finish her N lvl le !! haha

this 2 wks has been a quite relaxing and fun wks la , erm but justin left for china for 2 wks and i believe he is going to miss us !! haha but i tink i will start to miss kenedict once he leave china next wk !! he will be going for 4 mth plus lorx .. is like so so long !! anyway all the best in china brother !!!

i am like having a serious sore throat now !! i need a bottle of Colling tea lorx !! anyone wan to buy?? can help me buy also wow!! haha and i really painful when i am swallowing food... super sian de lorx !! cant really eat much thing except porridge which can be eaten easily !! haha

ok i am super super jealous when i saw the blog entries at ****** blog !! haha erm dunno why like tat but jus feel tat way lorx and i tink i am in love now !! haha

erm may the force be with me !!! haha

8 of sep 2008

Hi all , i am back to blog again and i am at 201 mac again !!! erm kind of moody jus now but i am feeling better le !!

erm tell u guys a story la !! is abt my past relationship !!

it all started at june of 2007 i was back to smsing one of my fren which was quite a good fren la and after a while i have ask myself this "is she the right one ??" i told myself she is and i had told her how i feel and thing started ... since june 07 we had been smsing each other caring and concerning each other and we even go out at times and we had been in a very good relation since then and only until this year april i had give myself a chance to tell her how i feel and her reply was " i am still not ready" of cos when i heard tat i am really down but i still want to go on but till aug 08 i had ths feeling that i am like a toy !! when needed i will be ask for and when i am not i will not be ask !! the felling reallt suck but i really dunno if she is really treating me this way but i decided to put it down and end it and become friend instead of making myself always feeling that i am toy !! i did ask myself why i feel tat way ?!?! is bcos i am too good to her ?? or i am just a replacement ?? it really bother me alot even till now !!!

spending a year plus and i wun say i did not get anything !! cos i get to know her even better and have another good fren in my list !! hehe

thru out the year plus i have learn how to control my emotion and also learn to know girls better in different way !! so for now i tink i will carry on finding the right one !! or maybe i have already ?? haha dun worry i will let u guys know if i really do find one !!

7 sep 2008

Hi all !!! erm i am now at mac studying for my upcoming paper on 9 sep !!! haha erm is abit last min but i believe that i can do it de !! hehe

erm i will be really back to working on 9sep night and if u find me pls inform me earlier to let my plan my time !! hehe anyway i am now filled up with lots of thing !! PLTC and lot of scout stuff ... hehe so i tink i will be really busy for the mth and i will of cos have time for someone !! hehe dun ask who ar !1 erm if we can get tgt i will let u guys know de !!

my fren once told me this !! everyone have hidden talent !! do u believe it ?? and have u found your hidden talent in you ? i am sure the talnet tat is hidden mus be something tat will benefit u the most in ur life and once u found it i am sure u will use it well !! hehe as for me i dun tink i have found it but i am sure i will soon find it ba !! hehe

to all my malay fren !! happy fasting mth !! erm u guys can always find me out for supper de !! hehe and happy advances hari raya !!! hehe

26 of August 2008

Hi all, sorry for the lack of updates !! haha erm this week i can say that i am freee from work as there is some problem with the sales and so i have no chioce but got cut by my BOSS !!!! haiz .. really hate it man ! and the fact is the cause of all this is bcos of all the morning crew !! always over loaded with crew and they are all high paid labour !! but what can i do ?? i can only tel my boss the reason and if she accept she should do something to it .. maybe i will take this whole week to really relax myself but if i dun work then where will my income come from ? haiz .. really headach man !!!!!!!

i am really happy that SandS rover is coming to a new and fresh year as most of us found a reason to stay in SandS now and not like last time when we join bcos we had no choice !! people ask me this before "how far you think sands rover can go with the amount of people ?" seriously i am quite piss with the way they ask me but i told them this "very far and i believe sands rover will be a unit that will soar up high as years goes and even with me alone in the unit i will not let the unit die off !!!" seriously i think that even with the manpower we have now which is 4, we are still able to work well and even do thing better than a unit with 20 people !! reason ?? ALL THE ROVER IN SANDS FOUND A REASON TO KEEP THE UNIT TOGETHER AND WORK WELL !! am i rite to say tat ?? i tink i am !!! so for people who did not see sands far, wat i can say is watch and see us FLY UP HIGH !!!

there is something i learn in class last week !! what is our need and what is our want in life ?? this question had really made me think abt lots of thing .. is wat we are having now a need ?? think again !! handphone ?? i am sure most people will say it is a need but it is actually a want, i am sure without a handphone there is still payphone rite ?? haha so is girl friend a need or a want ?? to me is neither nor !! reason ?? girlfriend is a partner in your life that will change you la !! haha so so so .. i really need a girlfriend badly man !! haha

17 aug 2008

firstly i will like to wish WAIMAN happy birthday !!! so here is a song for u !!
happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,happy birthday to waiman,happy birthday to you !!! mauckxx mauckxx .. haha

same thing happen for the week again !! i am still busy working thru the week and the onli differences is i went for a campfire yest !!! haha erm it was really quite a dissappointed campfire by cat high !!! hhaa erm i tink the main reason is the campfire is way too big le .. 33unit la !! but after all they had put in alot to make the campfire happen so still , good job cat high !!

erm jus now i was talking to waiman abt old at age young at heart is more important !! u agree ?? ahah i AGREE .. haha so wat if i am 20 this year ?? most important is i am young at heart !! haha ... don't u think so ??haha

erm i was at my grandpa house today to pray and it has really been a long time since i see my relative la .. haha and good to know that they are all good and my cousin is also at a better state now !! even thought she did not come today but at least i am imform ... hope to see her get back real soon and move on !!! erm i tink i should end here le .. haha

12 august 2008

Am i Really wasting time ?? things has been on for like a year but izzit really true that there is no progress ?? maybe there isn't to you but to me there is really a progress ... from the start i know that i will not be your BoyFriend till now i still have the same thoughts but why i really wan to carry on is bcos i am really deep in le !! even if u are not my girl i am still trying my very best to stay positive bcos i like the way we are now !! going out when we are free, smsing each other and showing concern to each other .... little little things u do like asking my to rest more, take care of myself has a big impact to me and that is what made me carrying on and make my not really mind if we are together !!! i might be silly but all i am doing is to love the person i truely love !!! i really dun mind you not replying my sms cos i know u are busy with studys and also with your cheers !! if i really mind do u think i will still be carrying on ???

things might not be going the way i want it to go but all i wsh for is to make sure u are happy when u are out with me and to make sure i can unload your stress when u are feeling down !! i really dunno what i am doing now really help u in unloading your stress but at least i know i am doing something for you !! u said i will be a good boyfriend to my girlfriend but do u think i will be happy when that girl is not u at this moment ?? is hard for me to put down as it has been like almost a year plus that we had been caring and concerning each other and y i had nv ask u to be my gal ??? is bcos i know the answer !!!!

i really dunno what to do now !!! and i really dunno ...... maybe all i need is time to readjust myself ..... haiz ..... is hard to love !! i really hope that i can be LOVED !!!!

11 of august 2008

I am really busy for the past few weeks man . haha erm this national day i spend the whole day working from 9am till 2 am .. haha erm i think i am really crazy man but i can only say i'm lovin it !!! haha

today i was smsing yiting and i feel really bad for onli meeting her like once per mth onli lorx .. erm had told myself just now to find more time to be spend for her so i must do it !!! YiTing i will de ... hehe .. erm yiting must get enough rest and study hard for your exam !!! all the best dear !! haha

i am sure everyone like to be love then to love other people and i can only say if u dun start to love the other how are u going to be loved !! haha but of cos if u put in lots and lots but still dun not get the love from the other side then something must have gone wrong ... and u should find out the reason !! anyway i had to agree to this " if two is in love with each other it do not really matter if two is in a relationship".

anyway i have found the person i truly love le but both of us is not in a relationship and i dun really think is important cos i really like the way both of us is now !! haha YiTing !! u are loved by me !! haha erm both of us will be going to the flyer soon !! haha ... i am really looking for it and i hope that she will like it !!! hehe

6th of August 2008

Hi all !!! erm sorry for the late post !! erm recently i was really busy with family stuff and also work !! but i am still doing well ....

Has been busy working for the pass few week and really i really think that i suit the job i am in now !!! haha erm maybe it will be my long term job after NS !! erm most people think that working is just for money so jus do what you are suppose and f.. care the rest but to me i really think that is WRONG !!! erm working in mac not only help me in earning money but it had also made me learn how to communicate with people whom i don't know and also teaches me how to be more responsible in every aspect of life !!! seriously i had learnn lots of things while working and also made lots of good friend along the way !! i am really LOVIN IT !!1 haha

i am really happy that my boss had given me an excellent rating for my annual work rating !! THX BOSS !!! haha erm althought to me i won't give myself a excellent but jus slighty above good as i think there is still lots of thing i have to learn and do before i can really give myself an Excellent !!! so i will be working even harder to fulfill my target after NS in MAC !!!

erm i will also like to give Miss Yiting an Excellent rating !!! haha erm i really think that without her i might die la !!1 haha erm reason for the excellent ... firstly, she is a super strong girl !! erm she is always loaded with lots of stuff in sch and her cheers but she still nv give up !! good job girl !! secondly, erm i dunno lehx .. jus think that she should be rate excellent from jan to aug !! haha ...

erm a closer bond is build between the both of us and i really like the way we are now !!! but i am really looking forward to have a closer bond between the both of us and hopefully things will go well la !!! but no matter what will happen in the future i will still have her as a part of my LIFE !!!

1st Aug 08

3oth of aug 3.47am my baby nephew had pass away and left to the other world ... i am really controling myself not to cry at the hospital and yest at mandai but i still could not control but drop tears on both days !!! my cousin had really break down and i really hope tat she will be able to let go and live on !! i believe my whole family will be there for her !!

to my baby nephew lucas !! make sure u look after your mum for the other world and the rest of your family member !! and u are bless by all of us and all the god above us !!! u depature had been a impact on us but i am sure all of us will be able to get thru it with all the blessing from god and you from the other world !!!

i will also like to thx all my friend who had morally supported me !! thx alot !! Really wan to thx Yi ting and cottentaill for all the moral support given !! thx !!

29th of july

this few week has been a very stressful week for my cousin and my relative and i realy hope tat i can do my best to help everyone of them !!

putting blame on yourself when things happen is not the right way of doing !!! i always believe that there is always reason for something to happen in life and is not right to just put all the blame on yourself !! if it is his fate to live in the world for a short period only we also cannot blame ourself it is his fate and is god's will !!!

i am really feeling sad this few days but i really like to thanks Ting for all your SMSs .. everything u sms me i really feel much better !! i dunno y la but maybe is because of the power of Love !!>??!!

i think i will end here le ..

take care all my frens

with love
wombat

26th of july

I AM SO FREAKING ANGRY WITH FATE !!!! my baby cousin is less then a wk old but he might be leaving the world soon ..... is really freaking sad when i saw him today at the hospital lying on the baby bed and not moving at all !! i have been looking at him for like 30min and he did not even move at all !! tears almost drop out from me but i had no choice but to control it as i should not be breaking down even before the baby mum did !!! i really hate this feeling now and my whole family is so freaking stress and upsad !!!!! AGRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

this incident had really hit me and all i will like to say now is i might be alittle emo this few days but i wil try my very best not to show it to anyone of you ... but if i did pls bear with it !!

this should be all le ..

MSG ---->

Cousin : jie !! i will be here to support u in anyway !! your baby will recover de !!! PLS TAKE CARE !!!

YiTing : Ting ... remember tat i will always be with you to handle all your stress and everything de !!! I LOVE YOU !!!

24th july

in aug ken will be leaving for china for 6mth le !!! OMG la .. i am sure i am going to miss him la ... haha and yi ting will also be going for CIP trip for 3wks lorx .. OMG double attack !!! haha guess what !! i will be making something for ken !! i will make sure he cry before he leave lorx ...
really dun like the feeling for sending people off in the airport lorx ... althought they are leaving for few wks or few mth but i am sure it will be like few year in our heart lorx .. "i will miss ken de"...

time really fly very fast !! thinking back is like is jus jan the last mth lorx .. but the fact is 4 more mth it will be 2009 !!! wolf once ask this in a game "have u even think of stopping time ??" i tink i really hope i can stop time and reverse it and do all the things i nv do well la .. but whats the point !!! i think is better that i learn my lesson from there and the next time i face the same thing i will do even better !! rite ?? haha so you people put there reading !! do the best of the best in everything thing but if u did not there is always a chance to learn your mistake and do it better the next time !!!

that should be all le !! erm take care everyone !!

22nd of july

i really dunno why am i feeling so moody today !! but i will like to thanks wisdom keeper for his care and concern !! thx bro !!

life is short , i always believe this and we will not know what will happen is the next 10 years of even tomorrow so live up to the fullest !!! i have always had a thinking that i will not be able to live up to 40 but i am not really sad about it cos i know from now till the day i die i have lot of brothers and sister with me in my life to go through the high and low stages in my life !! thanks !!

i am kind of sad when i heard from my parents that my cousin baby might not be able to live on ... my cousin baby had jus t got into the world this morning but now the baby is in NUH because he had no reaction when he was born and it seems like there is a problem in his brain .. even thou i have not seen the baby b4 but i really hope he can live on in this world !! but even if he do not , at least he has came to this world to see his parents.but what i worried most is my cousin, i am afraid that she might not be able to hold the stress and sadness if the baby is not going to live on .... i really hope things will go well ....

MSG to my friends/Family

Jamie : really find time and think about what i have said to you !! i want u to live on to your fullest and be a better person !!

Cottontail : sister !! if u need someone to talk too,you can always find me !! always remember this .. you will still have all your brother and sister in your life !1 and i am sure you will be able to find someone better and really suit you !! there will only be 1 Mr Right !!!!

Marlin : bro !! i have trust in you !! i believe u can handle the post well de !! always set our mind set to "i'm preparing myself" ... this way no matter wat u want to do u will be prepared !!!

20th of july

i am now 20years old le !!! haha OMG i have hit the 2 le haha and i am looking forward to hit the 3 !! haha

19 of july 2008 we had a celebration in raging bat house for all the july babies and the party is fun and i have really enjoy it !! erm i will like to thanks some people here

1. yi ting
2. norman
3. azri
4. justin
5. faridah
6. kenedict
7. paul
8. joanne
9. yang chen
10. yang chin
11. waiman
12. szeli
13. dennis
14. wuye
15. ailing
16. stanely
17. shawn
18. my family
19. shalene
20. syiqin
21. yan ting

erm if i miss out your name sorry !!!

thanks all of you for the wishies and those who had went for the celebration !!!

my 20th birthday is my most happy one i had ever had as all my brother and sister had came to celebrate with me !! i will like to say THANKS EVERYONE !!!

18 of july

so tired man !!! haha erm went out with raging bat today to get present for all the july babies and i tink i spend around 100 plus dollar ... haha and after that we went to mac to wrap our present but azri become a laughing stock to me and 2 gals for JC !! haha guess wat we are laughing about !!?? erm is all because of azri way of wraping the present !! haha and azri is so malun la !! haha

after we are done with the wrapping i head of to meet marlin and faridah and after that head off to have dinner with my family member in fish and co for my birthday celebration !! haha and i really feeling weird to satnd on the chair and all the fish and co staff sang their cheers to me infrony of so so many people lorx !! but i really wan to thx all of them and my family member for the dinner and all the fun i had man !!!

after my dinner i went back to find raging bt and the rest and had a conversation on unit staff and then followed by the game "who,what,huh" and i really had lots of fun man !! erm tmr we will be meeting to celebrate all july babies birthday and i will be cooking !! i am so looking forward man !! haha

that should be all le ba ...

TING i miss u la !!

wombat

16 of july

awww.... it has been a tiring day for me man !! went to sch and after that to work but i did enjoy working today as i am kind of like in a good mood !! haha and of cos i have am also happy that i have a scout brother working with me !!! haha

you are doing well justin !! keep up the good work !!

talking abt justin ....
on 15 of july we went to watch hellboy with azri,paul,faridah,marlin and azhari !! and after the movie i had a great time talking to justin over lots of thing man !! erm first we started off with each other relationship and then to our unit then to something which is a heavy thing for me but after talking to him i had chosen not to think tat it is a heavy thing but a new learning point for me. so justin the next time u ask me i will say i am getting myself prepared !!! haha anyway i believe me and him will have more time to talk to each other de !! haha

i always believe that Siglap WhiteStag Scout is one of the best in tampines as we are a 50plus year unit in the district and til now i think we are still one of the best and i know that we are soon going even higher with bee and marlin leadership in the coming years !! All the best marlin !! i know u can do it de !! i put in 101% confident in you !! AS for Sigalp WhiteStag Ventures , i know we can do it de !! we will sure keep the silver FCS with us !! i will also like to thanks Azhari our VSL because without him i dun tink WSS venture will be sure a wonderful unit !! and he is truly training the leaders of the leaders !!!

ok ... now to the relationship .. haha erm i am not in a relationship now but there is omeone who i had already put her as part of my life!! haha erm all i wish for is for her to be happy in whatever thing she is doing !! and of cos enjoy her life !! i know i did not give u things that u want all the time but i will do it if i can de !!! I PROMISE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU SO I WILL !!!

my birthday is coming le !!! OMG !! soon i will be 20 le .. thinking back of what i ahve done in the past 20 years i have really not much idea what did i do also la !! haha but there is a few things that i have not regret doing !!
1. JOIN SCOUTING
2. BE IN LOVE WITH YOU !!
3. LOVING MY PARENTS !! HAHA
4. WORKING IN MAC
haha really very little thing rite .. haha but i will like to thanks my parent for bringing me up till now !! and i will still be here to bother u all de !! haha and of cos all my friends ,scout brother and sister and my relative !! thanks for the care and concern from everyone of you and i know that my temper is bad at times but thanks for tahaning all my brother and sister scout !!!
so this year there is a few thing i wan to do before my 21st B'dae
1. I WAN HER AS MY GIRLFRIEND
2. BIKE OR DRIVING LICENSE
license3. POLISH UP MY SKILLS IN SCOUTING
4. MAKE WSS VENTURE WITH A PSA HOLDER !!
that should be all le ba !! haha erm hopefully i can clear at least 3 of them ba !! haha

i think i will stop here today le !! i will post my next entries soon de

with love
wombat

Finally VLC 2008 is over !!! erm i will like to say Roving Ferret had done a goos job and i had really enjoy myself during the camp as a support venture !! WELL DONE ROVING FERRET!!

i am now updating my blog with a sleepy eyes !! haha erm i onli had 6 hour of slp for the past 2 night and i am really tired now !! haha

VLC 2008
i will like to thank VLC EXCO 7 member to give me a chance to mentor them thru the VLC 2008 and i had really enjoy myself with the EXCO and i hope that they had learn something from me thru all my talkings to them !! haha

everything had gone well in the 2 days camp and it had also given me another chance to work with my rovers after DPCC !! haha i wan more rover activities !! haha i think the only way to have more is to get a planning and inform the rovers !! haha

back to today

after the camp i when to Kbox to celebrate my fren YAN LING birthday !! haha . had i enjoyable night as i get to see some long lost fren !! anyway happy birthday girl !! erm enjoy your sweet 18 years ols ar !! haha

erm that should be all for today le ..
really tired

one last thing ...

I MISS YITING !!!

haha

with love
Wombat

8th of july

awww ..... went to work today and is quite slack today as there is not much customer today !! haha. today there is a customer that blame me for not giving him his complete meal but the thing is he want something which had to make him wait so i offer him to take a sit first but he blame me for not giving him his complete meal and ask me how is he going to eat ?? OMG man !!! he is really one weird guy that i had seen lorx ... haha

Yi Ting !!! sorry !! erm i will rest more de !! erm u mus also eat more ok ?? haha and dun get angry with that person who lied to you !! erm mus stay happy happy !! then u will look even more pretty le ... hehe

after work i join marlin,Rbat,Ccottontail,wk and joanne to chat awhile at my mac and went back home at around 1115 !! was really feeling tired so went back without waiting for WK !! haha and i promise i will rest well de so i will de !! dunwan her to get worried !!

that should be all for today le !!

With love
Nicholas
aka
wombat

7th of july

i am back from a long day from work and sch !!! today sch reopen for us and i think we are just doing nothing in sch today !! so so boring la ....

went to work today and cheryl(my boss) is like so worried that she will not get 100% for the mystery shopper la !! haha so funny lorx .. haha but in the end the shopper did not come .... so tmr will be another day where i will see her being worried !! haha but after all she is a very nice lady and also a very nice boss !!1 hehe

erm i am so happy that she had shown concern to me !! erm i know i am always pushing myself to my limit and nv get enough rest ... but i will try my very best to get more rest de !! dun worry girl !! erm tmr i will meet u after u reach tamp then accompany u home ok ?? hehe and must take good care of yourself and jiayou on your new work place !!! miss me woah , and i am sure i will also de !! haha

erm that should be all for today le !!
i am going to slp now !!

with love
nicholas aka wombat

5th of july

I am out today with YI TING !!! haha erm i had an enjoyable day with her !!!

4pm : we meet at tamp mrt after her work and the first think i saw her i really like want to
hug her la !! haha but of cos i did not :( haha
430pm : we went to buy our movie ticket for 645pm and then head down to Fish and Co for our
dinner !! want o know what we had ?? erm seafood platter for 2 , salmon salad !!! the
portion is really big and is really cold there !1 haha erm we did manage to finish the
food but we were like so so so full !!! haha
545pm : we went walking around the whole of tamp before going for movie lorx .. haha erm the
aircon in tm and cent is really very cold !! haha
645pm : We went in to watch Get Smart !! erm is a funny show and i had enjoy the show !! hehe
830pm : head off to Mc cafe for smoothie and chat over there till like 11pm lorx !!!
1115pm : I walk her home and we still carry on chatting on the way home !!
1130pm : she reach home !!! haha

so this is what we had did today !! and i really hope i can find more time to spend with her !! hehe.. and thanks yi ting !! i had enjoy my date today with you !!

MSG to Fren !!

YI TING : yi ting !! rest well dear !! erm the next time we meet should be real soon ba ?? i will find time and update u on our next date !! miss ya ting ... pls pls pls rest well !!!


that all for today ba !!

With love
wombat

4th of july

I think today is the first time i work in the morning in the whole holiday ba ... haha but i enjoy my work today as i got YAN LING to accompany me at work !! haha thanks LING ER !!

When out with R.bat Wisdom keeper and joanne to aiport today for coffee and we had TCC session over there !! haha had a great time with them this evening and i really hope next time more people can join us !! haha

for now i am going out for supper !! haha will be back to update again !!!

I am back with a filled stomach !!!

Erm jus in few more hours time i will be going out with YI TING le !! so long nv see her le .. tmr will be the chance to see her !! haha

R.Bat was asking me "how long do you think you will stay in scouting ??" and i am like ??!?!?!
haha but actually i was think about this when i am on my way home today but the only thing that came to my mind is "Once A Scout , Always A Scout" so did i answer his question ?? i think i did and i really hope that this can happen to all the scout in the world and of cos to the scouting brother i had know thru out this year .. justin once told us that what made him stay in scouting is bcos he wan to see the boys grow into a better person , so i believe all leaders out there is thinking the same way rite ?? so i see no reason to quit scouting and i believe it will be for life to me !! i really hope to see all the younger boys under me grow into a better person in the future and even do better than the rest of the leaders !!

next year i will be letting my first batch of sec1 in WSS to another leader and i really had lots of fun being with them for this year and pass them the skills i had , hopefully they will be even better after the next leader took over them !! so , ALL the best to WSS batch 2008 sec 1 and make sure at least one of you have a CCA award !!! haha


this bring me to another topic that i found while reading marlin blog , "a line drawn in love and caaring of each other " !!! i have to say i totally agree in marlin that there should not be a line drawn in caring and loving of anyone of your friends as i believe all the care and concern that u are willing to give is out truely from your heart so what is there to draw a line in that ?? unless u have are showing care and concern just bcos of your own benefits !!! so start to show more concern for your friends now and i believe that is the best way to maintain a long last friendship in your life !!

erm i think that is all for today ba ..
take care

With love
Wombat

2nd of july

back from VLC meeting at tam mac !! erm really feeling very tired as i was working in the midnight till this morning around 11am lorx .. haha ...

my new bro justin had join me in mac as a floor manager too and i am happy that i have a scout brother with me working !! haha anyway he did a very good job on his first day of work !! good job !!

i was reading faridah blog just now and she had ask this " what will you be doing in 5 years time ??" i had think about it and i think what i wish for after 5year time is to have a career,bike/car,diploma and of cos a stable relationship in life !!!

i really do not like to plan my life ahead as i believe as time goes we will get what we should get so no point planning rite ?? haha thats me la .. so my question to my friends too , what will u be doing in 5years time ?? haha think about it !!!

back to life
i have been busy working and scouting and yest i really feel that i had not been updating myself anout my family !! really feel kind of sad about it so i tink is really time for me to spend more time with my family .. so for my friends out there who had not beeing updating yourself about your family pls do so !! they are the one that will support you in whatever decision you made so care more for them !!

lets talk about relasionship !! it had been a long time since i am in a relationship with any girls but in this period of time i had know more girls and also know more about some of them so ixxit better this way ?? i really dunno !! but i know that i am now having this feeling on having a girlfriend ... but who will it be ?? haha i really dunno man !! loving someone is really hard and i always believe in "if is yours it will be yours !!"

To scouting
counting from the day i join scouting till now i am in scouting for 8years and it will still go on !! people always ask me why you still in scouting and i always tell them this "without scouting i will not be here talking to you !!"haha i really have to thanks scouting for making me knowing so many people in my life and also having a few great buddy in my life ( Marlin,bear,macaw,bat) knowing them and bring them in to my life has made me learn a lot from each and everyone of them so i will like to take this chance to say " THANKS YOU GUYS " thank all of them who had tahan my bad temper at times and my PMS at times !!!

i will also wan to say whitestag scout unit as well as SandS rover unit soar high and even higher !!! wombat will support and make both unit i am in the best !!!

To my friends

Faridah : dun stress yourself too much !! erm if need someone to talk to u can call me !!

Macaw : sorry i cannot go and see your comp but well done !! and i will miss you when u go china de !!

Waiman : exam starting soon le !! JIAYOU JIAYOU !!

erm that should be all for today le ..

1st of july

hi all , had jus reach home from 201 with Raging Bat and before that i am working !!

today i had encounter a customer that made me feel like punching him right in his face bcos of his stupidness and f***ness !!! he had made my boss cried jus bcos he think that he is F**king rich man or what la ..and is just bcos of 20cents and he made it a big issue by calling our operation manager to complain !! firstly he wanted a change of drink instead of coke and of cos we will have to charge the different but he said " i am not going to pay for the F**king different !!!" stupid rite ?? dunwan to pay for the different then drink COKE !!! freaking angry with him but what i am most angry with is we had no choice but apologise to him and even treated him the meal he brought !! too bad la .. we are in the customer service line ...... haix ..

let jus stop talking about this stupid guy !!

i had been really busy with work and scouting this few week so very sorry if i had not contact my friends for the past few week but i will try to drop u guys a sms when i am free !!

i have been having flu and sore throat for the past 5 day and i am really feeling weak as days go by ,, erm maybe one day i cannot tahan and drop dead ?? hopefully it wun happen la !! haha erm i think too many people is missing me le and that cos me to have flu for so long la !! haha anyway i will be still be much on working and meetings for the upcoming week but i promise i will take good care of myself de .. erm as some people did ask me to take care so i must !!!

it has really been a long time since i went out with my friends but this sat i will be out with YI TING !! haha erm is a date suppose to be on this month but sorry yi ting !! so this sat i will pay back !! and of cos more dates will come rite ?? haha

ok now this is very serious !! i want all of you who read this to remember !!! 20th of july is MY BIRTHDAY !!! haha erm u seen it so dun forget to buy me a present !! haha .. but i will be 20 le .. erm really feeling old .. haha but is a new chapter in my life and i mus make sure i spend the year wisely !!!

ok let me jus post some msg to my brothers!!

Marlin : erm take the post up next year !!! remember is for the troop !!and of cos good luck in finding the next nemo in your life !! and of cos pls remember to study horx ..

Talking macaw : i will miss you when u are in china !! and of cos pls find a date to meet out for dinner before u leave !!

BearBear : jiayou jiayou !! erm i wan to see u with a girl on your 20th birthday !!!

Raging Bat : all the best with the new work u got in fish and co !! and dun any how Rage !! learn to control !! sometime is good not to fight back but calm down and think and who know u will learn something new !!!

Wisdom Keeper : U wil have my support for PLTC 2008 !! we will together make it a sucess and also a unforgetable camp for all the participants !! of cos stay loving with joanne !!

Waiman : AH GIRL AR !! remember to study ar !! i wan to see u taking O lvl after your N level horx !!!

Cottontail : hey !! erm i am looking forward for the next time we will work together !! and of cos SandS rover will be soaring even higher as times go !!!!

that is all on the personal msg part !! haha

seriously i have regreted not studying well for my O lvl and even now i am not at the rite mood to study !! but i have no choice i mus finish my course and i want to do well but the thing is how ?? after this holiday will be my final sem and i really hope to score well and at least being able to apply for poly after my NS and get a diploma cert but things is not going the way i want but i can only try to pull back my result as much as i could !! so for those people out ther who is now taking your O or N lvl pls think about your future and pls start studying ...

so , all the best to lynn,waiman and Raging Bat who is taking their majoy exam this year !! all the best guys !!!

25 of june 2008

I am now in mac to catch the semi final match between germeny and turkey !! i really hope turkey will beat germeny down and make the world go "Woah !!"

We had a unit leader meeting today and lots of thing had been brought up and there will also be changes in the post of the leaders in 2009. i am really happy to know that i will be back to the sea again !!! WSS venture wait for my arrival soon !!!

Today after the meeting there is one thing that is going thru my mind even until now,SandS or WSS Rover ?? it is really very hard for me to choose but i really do not wan to see SandS to drop and i believe my decision will still be the same in the end . which is to stay in SandS. i have to say the bond between us after the DPCC had improve lots and lots so i can only say i will be there for SandS as well as my unit !!!

Let move to relationship .. erm i tink i had try to move things too fast therefore it will be better for me to be a friend of her first instead of moving things that fast . hopefully in the long run things might turn out good for the both of us and together serve the district and make tampines a better place for scouting !!!

Lastly , i will like to say is marlin go for the post !! i believe all the brothers in the unit will be looking for u to led WSS and sore even higher !!!

24/6/2008

i am really not in a very wonderful mood today maybe bcos i tink i am going to lose a fren in scouting soon . really hate this type of feelings !!!!

To HER
i rather u tell me how u feel instead of avoiding me !! i am not angry with the way u react but i am sure after all we start as friends and we should still be friends still rite ?? maybe u are afraid of what i had told u but even if u think is not possible for the both of us you should have just told me and not avoiding me !! as a friend i am worried when u do not reply and i might think that something had happen to you , even if is not u i will still think that way and future more i am in love with you !!! please do not avoid me . after all we are still friend and we will still have to see each other rite ??

i really feel lousy when people avoid me , i had made the choice to take care of you even if u are not mine but what do i get back ?? the choice is made by me so i will not regret the choice i made but all i wish for is you to be happy !! if avoiding me can make u happy let me know and i will dissappear from you as long as you are happy. i am really feeling the heart break this few days i really dunno y am i feeling that way but all i know is i love you !!!


deciding on who u will go for is really a hard choice in life but what even choice we made never regret it but make it memorable to you so people out there who is making your decision think of your future . will u enjoy being with him\her ??

lastly . if you are reading my blog give me a reply on your decision , at least i will not be worried why you are not replying me . i will also like to say sorry to everyone of you who will see me this week because i believe i wun be as lively as what i am always like for the week !! sorry guys ...


lesson learn
making decision is part of life so no point avoiding but face it . after all if u avoid u might lose something but if u face it u might just gain somthing instead so why not ?? i have made my decision to love u and take care of u so i will do it and not give up , even if u had made the choice of the other person i will still do the same thing but in a different ways so dun avoid me !!

hi all ...

it has really been a busy week for me as DPCC 08 had jus ending not long ago. i really miss the time in DPC together with the committee member as well as the participants. i believe the committe member will also miss all the fun ,laughter and quarrel that happen in the camp itself. having quarrels in the camp is often seen in many event even our own unit but i believe every quarrel we had is a new learning point to us and to take note of it to ensure the incident will not happen again. therefore learn from each and every other mistake and improve ourself as days goes on !!!!

i will also like to thx the 4 wonderful service scout that had never fail to help all the committee member. thank you joanne,Waiman,cohzet,thomas. u guys are great and of cos i hope my milo bing did help u guys for the short hours of sleep!!! special thank to jonne and waiman !! erm thx for visiting SHOP&SAVE so often to help me in purchasing the food ration !! thank you !!

DPCC had really made me know more people and also understand more about how the other unit train their boys and girls, also i had know my rover crew better in lots of way and i am looking forward to more events to be plan with the rover and also get in more people into SandS rover crew !!

firstly i will like to say welcome back nana .. hope that u had enjoy your trip in HK !! althought u forget to buy my present but is ok la since u said u miss me when u are in HK !!

tomorrow will be the dpcc 2008 le and tonight i will be working midnight shift from 12am to 8am so do visit me and u can watch euro at mac too !!R.bat , make sure u appear tonight to keep me accompany man . haha .

the weather today really make me sleepy . anyway went to sch today and my teacher will recomment me for a attachment trip to China this NOV but there will be a selection before that , hopefully i will be able to go for this attachment trip to learn more thing from there.

yest night i was talking to one of my DPCC boys and he told me that he want to get a gold for siglap and i am really proud of him when he told me that. even thou i had set my target for them as silver, i still hope they can go for a GOLD. they have really put in lot of effort traininig for this competition and i promise i will give them a movie treat if they could get silver this DPCC.therefore all the best WSS DPCC team !!!

i had invited ting for this DPCC campfire and she will see if she is free , so marlin i did invit le ar .. haha . anyway i will like to thanks marlin for inviting wan ting cos it has really been a long time since i saw her le . wonder how is she now ......
i believe her appeareance in the campfire will brighten up our dearest marlin day at the last 2 days of camp.haha. gd luck marlin .. make her ur marlin spike .. haha

ok . taking abt setting a target , will u set it high or low ? erm i believe most ppl will set their target high but if we did not hit our target will it be more difficult to get back again and set another target ??i believe i will be the one that cannot get back and set another target therefor i dun really like to set target and if i really do set, i will set something which i think i can attain then something that i know i might not get it . so if u think thst u sre strong enough to stand all this falling from high target teach me some skills !!!

EURO 2008 updates!!!

Swiss 0 : 1 Czech
Portugal 2 : 0 Turkey
Austria 0 : 1 Croatia
Germeny 2 : 0 Poland

here are the updates for the pass 2 days of euro 2008 .

it has been a tiring weekwnd for me !! have been working for both days and also catching up with euro 2008 . yest while working ,a sharp and loud voice was heard shouting across the whole day by a little girl going around disturbing my crew , manager and also the customer !!! i really cant stand her hyper hyper character , and the worst is she called me "UNCLE" !!!! but i did not blame her for that as she went around calling all the staff "UNCLE","AUNTIE". her visit to mac yest had really brighten up our day with laughter after non-stop action of service thru out the day.thanks girl .but stop trying to run into the service area !!!

DPCC is coming up soon , i will like to wish all participating school all the best and strike GOLD !!! anyway WHITESTAG SCOUT u guys better don't let down all the leaders !! erm althought i know u guys will not . HAHA . of course i will like to say "JIAYOU,JIAYOU DPCC COMMITTEES MEMBER !!!" it has been really taxing for faridah since the planning off this camp so i am sure this camp will turn out tp be the most successful camp planned . faridah u did a good job in the planning and all and i am proud to say we are from SandS rover !!!

i was talking to one of my friend yest about what do u actually want in your career , and both of us want to open a shop when we had have enough saving and then let money work for you .i personally believe i will not want to work as a worker for my whole life but i want to open a shop and do some small buisness and make sure my wife will have a wonderful life with me !!! therefore, for those young chap out there do find a job when u are having your holiday and do some saving for yourself adn don't always use your parent hard earn money !! is time for u guys to pay back to them after they had put in so much to make u what u are now !!

so love your parents and all ur friends around you !! of cos the one u love also !!
LOVE u Ting ..

Out with my scout Brother

hi all ...
this my first posting in my blog

today i had a very enjoyable day with macaw,marlin.bear and bat we went for dinner at Ehub and do all the freaking stuff in the car.
this is the first time that mr macaw had drove me around and i can only say MACAW BUCK UP ON YOUR PARKING BRO !!!!

we were like talking about girlfriend while travling around changi and i realise all of us face problem in BGR matter . which i believe those reading my blog had once face this problem too .

as for myself i am currently in love with this lovley and nice girl that i had met in my secondary life. even though i know that i will not be able to be her bf as i do not really have much confident but all i wish for is that she will be happy. i am happy with how both of us are like now , going out at times , show care and concern for each other and all the little thing she care about for me . THANKS TING :)

as for my MR FISH , make the right choice and give it all out for your happiness and of cause i will like to see MRS FISH soon !!!
BEAR , all the best with the girl you miss the date with (sorry to remind u that u miss that date) HAHA !!!
MACAW , all the best with you and evonne(hope i spell it correctly)
as for RAGING BAT , i am sure u will find someone that u can put in with 101% again , keep it up .

talking about find the right person in life is somehow still early at oour age but it is still good to express your love and feeling to the other one and learn as days goes . indeed if it is a rejection or a success take it as a lesson learn in life and do the best for the next one . of course if u had found someone u think is the person that u will wan to spend your life with , put in everything for him/her and all the best to all my friends in love or looking for a new relationship !!!