9 of nov

firstly, well done to al pltc participants and committee member for the successful PLTC seminar and i really enjoy myself with gilwell subcamp !!!

my mood now for the day !!! VERY VERY UPSAD !!!

the gal i love is living happily with another guy .... i have been thinking what is the reason that i love her and my purpose of loving her is try to make her chnage her attitude toward other and make sure she will be a better person ... have i done that ?? i believe her attitude did change and i am really happy to see her being a better attitude person !! i had also once said to justin that if i can see a change in her, it is also ok for me not to have her as my gal !! so wat i said had happen and do u tink i have the rite to be upsad ??

i should not be feeling upsad now infacr happy that she did change and she is now happy with who she is ... is jus a normal heart breaking nicholas u are seeing for the next few wk ... in fact i am really pissed with myself or not being able to tell her wat i really feel .. i am jus a NOOB FUCK ... wanting to overcome my fear of tell ppl but i still can do it rite !!!

MSG TO HER:
Wen ... i am sure u know this msg is to u !! i am really happy that i manager to see a change in you towards ur attitude and happy to see u finding someone who can love u more than i can !! is jus that i have a few thing which i didn;t have a chnace to tell you ...but it dun really matter le la .. but i do wish tat we can still be like how we are ... feel free to sms u if u face any problem and dun avoid anything !! after all still friends and still scout bro and sis ar !!!

ps:if i am not putting a smile on my face for the next few wk please forgive me !!!