13 oct 2008

我为什么还爱你?? 因为我不想放弃 !!!!

erm i really dun wish to give up !! erm everytime i decide to give up i always regreted !! maybe this time even if she do not respond or even care abt me i will still go on to try my best to change her attitude better to make sure she will be a better person in the future !! i really dun mind you not replying my sms de .... maybe all it will led to is me thinking of you even more as days goes on !! erm if i am not wrong .. the last sms u replied to me is on the 23 of sept !! is half a mth already ?? haha i also dun mind !! but pls dun not avoid me !! we still have many many event that we might meet each other de !!

erm 2 days ago i saw her at 201 !! erm i was with ken paul and faridah .. and the first moment i saw her i was super happy and i just have the urge to hug her la !! but of cos i cant !! and we did not even have chance to talk much !! even thou is jus a less than 3 min conversation and seeing her i really feel very happy !! dunno y la but maybe is jus bcos she is in me ?? haha ... after she left i was like keep looking back to see where she is and is she still there ?? do i need to send her to her fren house ?? and all la !! but a sms send and was not reply !! haha

seriously all i can say is I AM MISSING HER LOTS LOTS !!!!!


back to wat i am doing recently .... erm i am really feeling lousy as days goes by after she stop smsing me !! all i could do is to make myself tired by keep playing basketball and sport and also keep making myself watch drama till late night till i feel tired and so i can dun think of her so much !! haha erm maybe my life is jus simply 2 words !! fuk up !! but so be it man !! i really dun care !! all i can do is to try to bring more stuff to my life !! and i am really happy tat sch started and then i can go to sch and make sure i dun tink of too many thing !!!

i am always thinking if i should let her know wat am i really feeling not !! but somehow i am really afraid to let her know la.. or maybe not let her know but afraid to tell her "can u be my gf" erm so maybe one day when i feel tat she is ready i will ask her la !! but for time being i onli wish to change her attitude and hope that she can change her way of talking and all !!! if i can manage to change her it will be even better than being with her !!!!

I AM FEELING NEGGELTED AND I REALLY MISS YOU !!!