12 august 2008

Am i Really wasting time ?? things has been on for like a year but izzit really true that there is no progress ?? maybe there isn't to you but to me there is really a progress ... from the start i know that i will not be your BoyFriend till now i still have the same thoughts but why i really wan to carry on is bcos i am really deep in le !! even if u are not my girl i am still trying my very best to stay positive bcos i like the way we are now !! going out when we are free, smsing each other and showing concern to each other .... little little things u do like asking my to rest more, take care of myself has a big impact to me and that is what made me carrying on and make my not really mind if we are together !!! i might be silly but all i am doing is to love the person i truely love !!! i really dun mind you not replying my sms cos i know u are busy with studys and also with your cheers !! if i really mind do u think i will still be carrying on ???

things might not be going the way i want it to go but all i wsh for is to make sure u are happy when u are out with me and to make sure i can unload your stress when u are feeling down !! i really dunno what i am doing now really help u in unloading your stress but at least i know i am doing something for you !! u said i will be a good boyfriend to my girlfriend but do u think i will be happy when that girl is not u at this moment ?? is hard for me to put down as it has been like almost a year plus that we had been caring and concerning each other and y i had nv ask u to be my gal ??? is bcos i know the answer !!!!

i really dunno what to do now !!! and i really dunno ...... maybe all i need is time to readjust myself ..... haiz ..... is hard to love !! i really hope that i can be LOVED !!!!